YOU'RE THE LOVE OF MY LIFE......

There's nothing i could say to u when u talked to me like a stranger.
i know i ever told u to lessen our intense n stay communicated by email, n i told u the reason why... but i never thought u treated me like this way.
Maybe u angry with me, Maybe i hurt u cos of this, or maybe u just want to go away from me n forget me... n i have no idea why u changed without tell me the reason why.... It really shocked me......
But what ever ur reason babe, i just hope u can forgive me if this is the way u feel babe before u end this.... i hope u forgive me even u don't wanna talk to me anymore, i hope u forgive me all my sins to u before u forget me. In the name of God i really don't wanna or mean to hurt u bcs u part of me. But I'm just a human full of lacks n i hope u can forgive me before u leave me....

1st time when i knew u so different i felt so down for couple days but then i realized why i should sad if this way make u happy, why i should so down when i saw u strong enough without me and why i should cry when i know u don't need me anymore.
Then i ask my self do i really love u? "yes i really do"
I suppose happy when u found ur way to be happy without me.... then i stop my self to cry for ur changing even i still cry when i remember everything about u n us, all i can do just hug Cuby.... cos she part of us... and i know u deserve to be happy after all that happened..... u have rights to change n find ur own way to move on....
But i still believe in God, that u never far away from me.... thats only i've got to keep holding on with u babe.....

I just need ur forgiveness before u end this babe. I wont ask u more to do,.. i only beg u to give me last peace before u leave me babe, pls forgive me.......
I'll always pray for u n i believe our soul will meet in front of God in every prayers.
I never feel far away from ur soul whenever i stay kneel in front of God, u always inside of me babe, nothing will change in me, n i believe our love we have is part of God loves.
You're the love of my life..... n i'll always keep this love until i meet God someday.

Babe... i really need to talk n hug u before u leave me.... but i know u wouldn't come.....
Thats why i wrote this letter for u......
Thank u for everything u've given to me...
U guide me to God
U teach me how to smile
U show me life is so beautiful
U made me feel so alive
U made me feel like a woman
U made me feel the real happiness
U made me feel beautiful
U made me feel the real love
U stay loving me in any condition
U accept my lack as a woman
U always made me forgot that i'm sick
U always make me smile when i get upset
U made lot miracles in my life
U made me so completely
And for all these, im so thankful to God that I found my happiness n my soul mate already in u. and its more than enough for me than nothing... i feel so lucky babe n i never end this even i have to lie with everyone... i just cant lie with my heart n what i feel to u.....
I'll never forget u babe, never..... u always inside of me n there's nothing change in me.
I'll always miss u in every single breath i take...
And I'll keep waiting last miracle... i'll be waiting... even lifetime........
God will bless everything u've given to me,.. God bless ur every dreams,.. God bless ur every step.... God bless ur every prayer....
I believe God will take care of u alwys what ever u do n where ever u are baby.
In every prayer i'll always hold ur hands n hug u so tight, cos this only way to make me feel u so close to me....
I'll missing u n loving u as my real husband, u already have the whole inside I am, n i never regret that..... U always inside of me... always.....


With Love
Queenta